Tuesday, January 19, 2010

100%! 100%!

I take life seriously.
Perhaps too serious that sometimes I live as if there is no tomorrow.
So, end of last year I started to make resolutions again. Didn't write it down, but I carved in on my brain. Sadly, most of my resolutions are years and years old resolutions that I haven't able to fulfill because of the usual excuses; money, money, time, time. It's always money, it's always time. But I realized that there is bigger obstacle beside those two: will. The will to make it happen.
Yes, time and money always get in the way and I can't escape that, but I realize, if I really really put 100%, I probably can do it somehow. 50-60 or even 70% is not enough at all.

So hopefully this year I can fulfill the three wishes, with the resolution of putting 100% to my resolution (how confusing it is???)

Let's see. If all goes well, but mid of the year I should have crossed two out of the three things that have been my dreams for years.

Should try. For life is short. For life is always changing without waiting for you. For waiting and delaying means you waste valuable time.
Effort. Effort. Effort.

Wish me luck.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Don't Bang Computer To The Wall!!

If there is one thing that can make me agitate in matter of seconds, is the failure of machinery. I have the shortest temper for this, at the worst I can almost feel my eyes popping up because suddenly my computer just refuse to do what I ask, do it differently or insisting to do the wrong thing, over and over again.

Website or internet are also my main source of wanting to break things around me. Idiotic html, persistent errors and unexplainable problems are three main things. Unexplainable problems, I don't make it up, I think they hate me back. There are times when any guys who are expert or suppose to be expert in IT scratch their head wondering why on earth the problem is occurring. For example, in my previous office, long-long time ago, my Autocad doesn't work properly if it's installed after 3d Viz. It had to be installed first, regardless what, no matter how. What logic is that??

The reason I am pissed because everyday, during lunch hour, an anti virus check or whatever will appear on our computer screen in my current office. And randomly, after checking, it would restart the computer and closing all applications without warning. The problem is, it doesn't happen often enough so I would remember not leaving anything important to save.
However yesterday, I was working on something, then there was an interruption to do something else more urgent. Combined with going out to the site and doing other things, I forgot that I might not have saved the first thing I was working, at lunch, the computer did its magic, and voila, this morning, when I tried to find the file, I can't find it everywhere! *&@#$$^@#$%@...!!

Don't...bang...computer....or..... IT...department.... to.......the.......wall......


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Monday, January 04, 2010

Mother of All Monday

Today is probably the day, where all the working people on earth, look up at the sky, and say to whoever they believe in "WHY? WHY? Why this is happening to me?"

Yah.. It is.. The dreaded Monday.
The bluest Monday. The Mother of all Mondays.
The first Monday in January.

People are coming back from holiday..and worse, all fo the sudden, all the quiet, bumbling, fun, cold, festive are all gone. Next holiday is not near the horizon (although thankfully, Chinese New Year is near here. And CNY is the longest public holiday of the year..two days..! Well, I meant to say it as sarcastic-ironic.., but living here for sometimes, I get really excited to this 'longest' public holiday).

People are coming back to office. Emails are flooding in, but not those tingling Christmas theme. It's work!
While I spent my December envying (is it a proper word?) those who went on holiday, at least for me the 'culture shock - mother of all Mondays' is not creeping me in as bad as the rest who enjoyed their December elsewhere. (Although it's bad enough, especially with the heavy rain this morning. You know what is the meaning of heavy rain???? Good sleeep!!).
So when my enviness (not a word I'm sure) is over, it's time they envy me for being quite okay waking up today. 'Lucky bastard' is the type of the look they gave me..
Kidding... a bit.. I believe some of the looks are 'Nice to see you again'
'Howdy' and some 'Arghhh, it's you again?' 'So, how did you root in office last week?'

Anyway.. I can say that my solitary for most of December had been quiet in nice way, when I have the whole room for myself, did whatever I want or picked my nose whenever I need.. I also found the keyboard clicking, phone ringing and familiar faces to be something good also.

It's nice to be in the office when we actually like one another. Lucky me?




Many people look forward to the New Year for a new start on old habits.
- Anonymous

New Year's is a harmless annual institution, of no particular use to anybody save as a scapegoat for promiscuous drunks, and friendly calls and humbug resolutions.
- Mark Twain