Saturday, February 27, 2010

Bali Safari 13-21 February 2010

Bali Safari Journal
13-21 February 2010

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Cheer...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Loner

I am a shy person...?

Well, sometimes socializing kill me.
If I can choose I'll be going crazy if I spend one week without personal time tha none week alone without anyone.

Loner. Introvert or whatever it would be, but imho, not putting socializing as favorite activities doesn't mean one can't socialize.

In fact, beside having a blast hanging out with friends, I can hook up conversations with new friends or strangers easily, and I think I can mix myself into new environment or have new friends without much difficulty.

However, I can only limit my bandwith to certain capacity. If I have to meet friends that I'm not really close with, perhaps some relatives or newly known friends etc two days in the row, the energy really drains me. Sometimes I think I need to be around people, but many many other times I need alone time with myself or just the closest people in my life.

I prefer to eat alone rather than spending one hour with people I'm not really close to or comfortable with. Again, knowing them more is fine, I might gain new friend and I can do that, but I'm lacking of any motivation to put myself into the situation on the first place, if I can avoid it.

I declined two invitations last night to hang out with two group of new friends, one group even consists of one of my best friend wanting to introduce me to his personal friends, the others are fun people who like same activity with me. In fact, I was alone and was kind of needing something or someone to cheer me up, but yet, I chose to be a loner.

Maybe sometimes I wish I can be more outgoing, but having time alone or just being in circle of people I'm really comfortable with means more to me.

Although last night situation make me think, maybe if I'm more outgoing and just go out to hang around with them, would I gain few more good friends or would I feel miserable and uncomfortable?
From my statistic the first one is more likely to happen, maybe because when I really go out I can see that I can align with that particular people, if not I would decline forever?
Maybe next time when I have better mood. : )

I wouldn't change anything because I have been like this, well..., 33 years.
I think I just realize it more than ever.

You never know anyone or even yourself too well I think.


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Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Beautiful Singapore

There are many sides of Singapore main island, it takes time to explore, it takes moments to ponder.
The impression is always, big city, transportation hub, shopping center, busy roads, fast-walking city dweller, buildings, buildings, buildings.

Despite the limitation and the main characteristic, Singapore actually has many hidden places, if you care enough to explore. Places where you can see less people, places where you can say "I don't feel like I'm in Singapore."..

I have found some secret places by accidental exploration or introduced.
Some time ago, I found a nice patch of shore just next to the place I work. It's not that close, we needed to walk around 3 clicks to reach. But it's very nice, quiet, beautiful and green patch of shore overlooking the reservoir. The road is just a distance away, but we can forget the sound of traffic and feel 'out of Singapore'.

There is also lush 'forestry' quite near my house, even though it's next to the street, it's well hidden, and the amount of mosquitoes and wild macaques say so too.

Last weekend I explore east part of Singapore, where I stumbled upon hidden beach and beautiful pine forest. There are beaches where we could see people fishing, doing Kite Surfing (It's an impressive sport!), rope-boarding (I don't know what is the official name).

But the best, are still the secret bays where we can just watch the water movement on the sand, colorful sea snail, sitting under the tree and listen to bird chirping with extraordinary beautiful blue sky and vegetation along the way.

No closure for this post.


Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Our hearts are drunk with a beauty our eyes could never see.
~ George W. Russell


Do I love you because you're beautiful,
Or are you beautiful because I love you?

~ Richard Rodgers and Oscar Hammerstein II, Cinderella