I am a shy person...?
Well, sometimes socializing kill me.
If I can choose I'll be going crazy if I spend one week without personal time tha none week alone without anyone.
Loner. Introvert or whatever it would be, but imho, not putting socializing as favorite activities doesn't mean one can't socialize.
In fact, beside having a blast hanging out with friends, I can hook up conversations with new friends or strangers easily, and I think I can mix myself into new environment or have new friends without much difficulty.
However, I can only limit my bandwith to certain capacity. If I have to meet friends that I'm not really close with, perhaps some relatives or newly known friends etc two days in the row, the energy really drains me. Sometimes I think I need to be around people, but many many other times I need alone time with myself or just the closest people in my life.
I prefer to eat alone rather than spending one hour with people I'm not really close to or comfortable with. Again, knowing them more is fine, I might gain new friend and I can do that, but I'm lacking of any motivation to put myself into the situation on the first place, if I can avoid it.
I declined two invitations last night to hang out with two group of new friends, one group even consists of one of my best friend wanting to introduce me to his personal friends, the others are fun people who like same activity with me. In fact, I was alone and was kind of needing something or someone to cheer me up, but yet, I chose to be a loner.
Maybe sometimes I wish I can be more outgoing, but having time alone or just being in circle of people I'm really comfortable with means more to me.
Although last night situation make me think, maybe if I'm more outgoing and just go out to hang around with them, would I gain few more good friends or would I feel miserable and uncomfortable?
From my statistic the first one is more likely to happen, maybe because when I really go out I can see that I can align with that particular people, if not I would decline forever?
Maybe next time when I have better mood. : )
I wouldn't change anything because I have been like this, well..., 33 years.
I think I just realize it more than ever.
You never know anyone or even yourself too well I think.
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