Thursday, October 18, 2007

One Day in the Class

When different people say the same thing about us, it’s time to introspect.. is it?

Not necessary!

On the same week some time ago, I have been called destroyer by my colleagues and classmates. But no lah, they are just too blur to see the real nice me. Keke..

Anyway, I find it funny that my classmates are always surprise with my jokes. It’s common that when I play I used a bit of stunt and sound effect, but for them, they call me crazy and violent. For example, using &%#@$& on sms to curse on assignments is just too normal, we can find it in children comic. But they say I speak vulgarity. Since then, anything I did, like play pin stabbing on the announcement board, giving virtual elbow punch etc, or simply say it’s freaking hot in class, they will pick on me. Don’t get me wrong, we had fun and laugh. But I protest because when somebody else did that, they will say I influence them, or even when somebody else uses four word language, they are okay with it! What a double standard, they just say that my face just doesn’t match with what I do and what I say, I should just sit nicely, wear flowery skirt and knitting.

Tuesday, I was attacked badly. The things is, the night before when we walked back home with some friend, we accompanied our Japanese friend to her office to put in some file because the office is spooky at ten. So while waiting for her, we started to find anything interesting to do. The office wall is made of those textured wallpaper, so while my friend was talking, I virtually, v-i-r-t-u-a-l-l-y bumped my friend’s head and dragged along the wall. Just for fun. I did it all the time! It’s a new thing to them, so they were amused, but soon, they found it fun too, I’m sure..!

So when we met again on Tuesday night, it was raining hard. She was late. So I told her that she actually could call me so I could pick her up in the junction with umbrella. When it looked like she had this sparkling in her eye that there is a friend so nice to her (uhuk…croak..croak..) I suddenly remember that when I was nice the last time, she said it was not me. So I banged her head again to the wall, dragged and now the wall had some hanging frame so it was not a smooth ride, even for virtual one. Ha..

As usual, she would tell the whole class about what I did to her, and this time, the class was very big, together with my other friends from other class, and the worst, the lecturer also played along.

It was almost like an intervention! The lecturer pretended to give me advice, then my friend said it was all started since the particular module that everyone finds it hellish, then everyone pretended to give me advices too. At one point I really think they were not pretending anymore..Argh…

Then the lecturer said there are ways to control your anger management, one of it by blogging (huh), the highest number of whinny blogging is about mother in law and sister in law. My other friend was interested, sister in law..!

Why? You have sister-in-law-to-be you want to kill?

Yes, indeed I do.

Then why don’t you hire her? The lecturer pointed to me.

And before I could say anything. My Japanese friend turned to me and asked surprisingly, Are you a hitman?

And the worse thing is, she really believes that. She is such a honest person.

A day before, when the lecturer gave a remark that Do not drop your soap in the prison.

Somebody has to explain it for her.

Lucky, I could find my way out of the class before I needed to hear the vivid explanation.



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If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson




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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Fuel Station

Yesterday I was talking to my Japanese friend. She said something very cute, but made me think. She was very excited to go back to her hometown soon for holiday, and she told me that going back to Japan is her fuel, she needs to refill her energy every half a year or less. Then she told me that going diving must be my fuel, which indeed, I totally agree.

I guess every one has it. Whether it’s favorite place or favorite things to do, human needs refill. In my Uni time, I don’t really have special place to refill, because I studied in wonderful place. There are few lakes that I could patron; one with a lot of life, water lily, tadpoles and beautiful sight. One for activities like kayaking or rubber boating. One for morning jogging track along the reservoir. There are numerous natural places that we could go. Walking among the giant trees and beautiful fallen leaves, lying down on the nice smelling grass, relaxing while listening to the music of bamboo trees, or climb the big trees, the trees are really climbing friendly, they have big sequential barks you can hold on too, and there are normally very spacey area on the top that can fit two or three people.

I was so lucky to stay in my fuel station back then. Sometimes I went for the additional super turbo refilling by joining my group activities. Staying in Indo is generous fuel filling too, especially during uni time where we have groups with various activities we can go to with the low lowest of budget. Few hours drive and we can get to almost anywhere special. Nice beaches, developed tourist beaches or beautiful remote untouched ones. Nice mountain, nice beautiful cliff or nice lakes and waterfalls.

Even though my fuel station has changed its shape, it still has the same concept, as long as it’s natural, I can get it. It’s only more difficult and far now, I need more effort and sacrification to go it.

What is you fuel station?



Man’s heart, away from nature, becomes hard.
- Chief Standing Bear, Ponca Nation


Under cherry blossom there are no strangers.
- Issa, Japan


The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity which we are permitted to remain children all our lives.
- Albert Einstein



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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Ha.. & Go...

Ha! Apparently being an unemployed is not easy and not relaxing also.. There are many things I need to settle, using up the advantage that I can go anywhere during office hours. So officially, after one week of freedom, I still haven’t enjoyed myself much. Wake up early and sleep late. Still the same.. ha…

Since my brother has officially settled down with his family here, lucky him, he has many advantages with us being around, unlike me back then when I had to roam this concrete jungle cluelessly. I paid a official visit to his family. His baby daughter Nadia is reputable for rejecting strangers and OAKKKK… even Mom and Dad need few days to approach her. For me, I always think that kids will be scared of me, although it’s not proven so from my bigbro’s children, I still don’t have the confidence. Normally if I see cute stranger’s kids I will make faces and sometime the kids will return and mimic my expression, sometimes they laugh but sometimes they hide with horror or give ‘almost cry’ faces, lucky I always escape on time.

Fortunately, Nadia didn’t scared of me, she even asked me to carry her by waving her arm toward me, she also read newspaper with me. Ten months old, but I guess she can understand when I read the newspaper for her. At least it looked like she understood..! One thing great, I think she is like me, hehe.. she wants to eat everything. When her grandma gave her apple, she chewed it religiously, but then we decided the skin is too hard for her, so the grandma took it away from her and wanted to peel out the skin in the kitchen. When Nadia saw the grandma disappear with her food, she turned around and found the source, fruits on the plate, in front of my nose. Alarmed, I took the plate and before I knew she was already next to me and trying to reach for the plate. Didn’t have the chance to stand, I had to raise my hand holding the plate higher. She was furious, she grabbed my shirt, my shoulder and stood up (she can’t walk yet) and also tried to reach to my hand. I was panic, I put the plate on the floor as far as my hand could stretch, she quickly changed strategy and crawled toward it. Lucky her mom came with the apple otherwise there would be crawling competition which I never win when I tried to do it against babies..

Caltex Go-Kart Championship! Hubby's team is Top Six, unknown whether it's 4/5/6.
Not bad at all...!





Tuesday, October 02, 2007

SO

So, this is officially my last day at work, after spending 1/6 of my life here. There are many things I’m grateful for so I won’t say I regret about anything. I had great times, great friends and I will remember just like that. It’s also a bless that I postpone my resignation last year as I met many new wonderful friends.

One thing time can never teach me, is I’ve never been good in saying goodbye. But I learn that during my lifetime people will come, touch my life, some stay, some go. It’s sad, it’s difficult to understand, but I think that’s how it works. I will never get used to it and I don’t want to.

The only thing that never changes is change.