Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Okay..

Okay….
I have been feeling guilty I haven’t been backing up my brain often lately. Thing comes and goes, drafts written and forgotten. While I had a lot of time waiting for computer rendering in my previous job, new job, I don’t have the idle time to write. So, I only write on the bus, then pile up the files but never really edit and post it. Aiii…
When I reach home all I want to do is relax…
Not only my backup is suffering, my assignment too.

Yesterday morning I threw away two Snickers bars from my chocolate box. It’s kind of pity to see because Snickers holds special place in my memory.
Back then in Batam, when snack was luxury and surviving for the next pay check was a challenge. I remember a friend of mine bought Snickers and we all shared it. It was probably the first time I taste so-called more premium chocolate and it was good. First time we were able to save, that was the thing I buy, even though I’m not a big fan of chocolate. I still mentioned nowadays, how different things are, now it’s not a life changing situation to afford a Snickers.
So, this China food scare put the Snickers for our rainy hungry afternoon snack to the bin.

Anyho, nowadays it’s difficult to tell poison to food. What is safe to consume now? Pesticide, tapeworm, madcow, madbird, boraks (sp?) , and now..plastic?
Huh….

Okay, I don’t like this subject. So I’ll stop and promise myself to backup my brain at least once a week.

We can never trust plastic infested digestive system.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Shoes!!

While it’s a brisk and perhaps a monthly necessity for other girl, it’s a big task for e to find shoes. I can enjoy buying sport shoes, even slipper and unusual shoes like boot style, but when it comes to ladies shoes, I will prefer to be locked in a mall full of electronic stuff I might not understand. I can spend much more time in department store’s house ware floor than shoes and bag section. That is the most depressing section or me. Either I sip it at all or I stand there in agony looking for a gift for somebody who I know, they like ladies shoes and bad. Actually, I don’t know anybody who doesn’t, aaargh.

What is up with these two things? Ladies shoes are so uncomfortable that it comes to the point I feel that it’s changing my personality when I have to wear that. Ladies bag, urgh, useless thing that clutching uncomfortably in your shoulder, about to fall but not falling, too expensive to be put thrown anywhere on the earth or too inflexible or unable to be stuffed with things other than handphone and purse. What is a bag that can only carry handphone and purse, and you have to use your hand and hold it? It doesn’t help a thing; you might as well carry you’re the stuffs without the bag.

That’s why I never voluntarily spend time in shoe ad bag department, I don’t even give it a glance unless I really have too. A lot of guys say my husband is lucky, don’t need to put up with crazy expenses men don’t really understand about why girls keep buying shoes. For others, I actually understand that women can need a lot of shoes because there are so many types and colors of it, if they can wear it, then good for them. They look nice for those who can endure. Beauty is pain, although I can’t never subscribe on that ley alone master on that, I would have die long time ago trying. So, in my opinion, hubby has his own nightmare the time comes, when I really really have to buy shoes. Ladies shoes.

He has to be the one who alert about which potentially nice buyable shoes that fit my needs. I f it’s up to me to buy, I’ll never stop for more than two minutes to look at shoes unless it’s really nice but it’s hardly happen. Let’s say, more than half a year I already have a plan to buy a shoes, a nice ladies shoes that can be wore in parties I will have for the upcoming weddings I’ll need to attend. Now, one month to go, I still haven’t really look for any. I tried few times, but it’s like waste of time and I feel bored browsing at the shoes, tried few pairs, but it’s just not my style, so it’s difficult to get excited.

I do have few ladies shoes, to be exact, three pairs with one pair just died. One is so-called my favorite because that was the only one I wear for a few times everytime I can’t get away with casual shoes. I bought this one right after my graduation. Excited, happy to embark to work life that if we see in the movie, it’s time when girls have to use make up, wear heels, skirts and dress properly. Apparently we don’t really have too, ha…. First time I wore this shoes with skirt I felt down on the side of the Thamrin busy road on the way to interview. *%@#^$ But I got to say that I had managed to walk long way, long road in between swarm of people or quiet place with that shoes too, safely and sound. It still survives until now, in fact I just wore it again for one event four months ago, and it’s on stand by in case I’m too lazy to find new one. After all, it’s the only ladies shoes ‘wearable’.

The other one, I got it from a male friend. Out of nowhere, when I graduated, he gave me this shoes. It’s a nice champagne gold colored shoes with strings and amazingly, it fits me well. This guy managed to do the most impossible task, buying a shoe that fits me and suit my taste without I even realize how and when. Too bad, I didn’t have many chance to wear it ad sadly, I think the strings are getting fragile and probably not enough to support me anymore.

My last one, is, well, my wedding shoes which I only wore for the registration of marriage. White colored, nice design, but I think it’s not comfortable, I didn’t even wear it to the wedding dinner. It still safe and sound and untouched somewhere.
So, I do need new shoes, I really need to go out there and looking for a new one, regardless how boring ad tedious it is, hopefully the wearing part is still much more bearable than the buying.

Secretly, I do have a little wish that I can start getting used to all these ladies equipment, that are pretty but painful. Let me keep trying although the ‘try’ is not maximized at all.